Monday, September 13, 2010

Home vs Out, thankful to be able to go crazy

This was never even a debate in my mind it was always out. Going out with my friends was an escape for me. A way to make me feel like me and let the stresses of the week melt away. It made me feel like a person. Being a stay at home mom after I had my last son was different for me. I worked at the same job for 3 years. They became my family and my outlet to vent about everythin and I actually enjoyed going to my job. I realized that more then ever when I became a stay at home mom after a while. My husband and I would fight a lot about me going out and why I felt I needed to. He still got to go to work. To talk to adults and vent about me and his stress. lol. I can vent to my 5 year old on how sometimes they drive me crazy. I can vent to my husband how he was being a pain that day. I also can't brag about how awesome my kids are or how my husband makes me feel so lucky everyday. I felt I was just becoming a mom and a wife and I was losing who I was. I say this all the time. I'm not just a mom or a wife I'm me. Though lately I have become more content with hanging out at home on the weekends and maybe having a few drinks. Putting the kids to bed and hanging out online or having fun at home with some friends over. I don't know what the change is. I don't know if my husband and I are happier and I feel more content or if I am just growing older and realizing that be a mom and a wife is who I am. It's made me who I am and it will always be that way. I thinks it's the growing older and wiser thing. lol. I've had so many transformations in my life in who I am and it has always been because of something. Becoming a wife and mother is just another factor in my life that made me who I am. Not change who i am. I should be thankful for being a wife and mother instead of worrying how it has or will change me. The fact of the matter is it made me and changed me into a better person then who I would be if I wasn't these things. I'm humble and grateful, PATIENT and kind, I'm not conceited or cocky. I appreciate the little things and moments in life. If I didn't go through the things I have I wouldn't be such a wonderful person and I know that for a fact. You never realize how much of a better person you really become when you become these things. No one ever tells you that you are these things either. So thank your husband and kids for making you who you are. Of course at times they may turn you into a total certified person. haha, but you would never have the patients not to kill them had you not taken the tools to control yourself in such situations. Some women are not lucky enough to be as good of women as we are now then we would have been,


Becky Jane said...

Love your Post...You express yourself beautifully. I am a Mom, Wife, and who i am and what still lies ahead...I'm your newest follower from MBC. Hope you can stop by for a visit!
Thanks, Becky Jane
Raising kids can be a lot like weeding the rose bed...well worth it, but...OUCH!

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Veronica Lee said...

Hi! Stopping by from MBC. Great blog.
Have a nice day!